It feels as though everything has happened in a blink of eye. I got myself into uni, and everything just flew past right in front of my eyes. I stopped to take a look and I'm already in year 2. Time really flies and as much as I hate to admit, I have to agree.

Having stepped into adulthood, its pretty obvious that people change. Some people talked to me after not seeing me for 2 years and they said I have not changed a single bit. Some people may feel that I have changed. But have I? Perhaps I really did. I'm not as naive as I am and not that believing as I have been fifteen years ago. However it's really nice to know that my friends still think of me as the same person. You know you always meet people constantly, some are hi-bye, some are there to stay for long, some can only be a good friend. I thought it would be good to have just one fren who's there for you all the time, and one is enough.

Sometimes I just like to be alone, quiet moments are always useful to reflect on myself. You can call me a loner or independent. It's nice to do things alone.

I don't really know what I'm trying to drive at. But someone who just walk past me at a quiet corner called me a loner. That got me thinking quite a bit. Hmmmmmmmmm. Sometimes you just want time to yourself.

Oh ya. On a side note. I chose maths as my major! Thats definitely not because of my bf ya? I really hate it when ppl give comments and say dumb stuff. You know, my decisions are not swayed by anyone. Hate it when ppl associate my whatever actions to my bf. Get a life grow up! Sometimes I may be quite okay with jokes, but it doesn't mean I like to entertain them.

Hoho. Looking forward to batam and gold coast trip! Love it!:) I would love to see the sun across the crimson horizon and the vast blue ocean! Not to forget diving at
tioman!

Well, actually just to clarify, the emo post wasn't because of me and my boyfriend. In fact we seldom quarrel, always at peace ( sounds like the V show on channel 5 now. Lol). Anyway, even if we do squabble, it's none of other ppl's business. This blog only serves the sole purpose of me expressing my unhappiness. Doesn't sound like me eh? I seldom talk in this tone.

Time to be a little more honest.

I miss Australia. Life there is simply too tantalising to resist. Even the lavatory over there is always so clean. Toilets over here are forever clogged up with toilet paper and people seem to urinate all over the place. Some can even excrete huge amounts of smelly excrement without even flushing. Eww . People over there are nice too. Perhaps I can migrate there after my bond, work hard and own a freakng house right next to the Brisbane river.

Sigh sigh. Thereas a calculus rest later. Four questions in just twenty minutes? I can do them if they are chicken feet. But if e questions needs to be axes or twist, then forget it, 20 minutes of my life is not enough. Lol. Let's pray hard .


Can you feel this magic in the air? Today was a fairytale.

When something really bad happens, and it really did happen, you start to think about the possible circumstances that may happen.

When people start to shower care and concern on you, you start to feel a little better and think that it will all be well again. However, when people start to tell me not so positive stuff, I start to worry and become very depressed. It's not something you can control. Feelings are hard to control in the first place. Try being in my shoes. Try being in my situation. Try understanding. The kind of distress that I am actually facing is much more than you have expected.

I feel like shutting myself out in a lonely world with just me myself and I. Then I can heal on my own without facing anyone.

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I am dying to go K box~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I need recreation~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I want to sleep for the entire day~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

It's only the 2nd day of Secondary School life and I am feeling so shagged. LOL. I am goin to open a tuition centre after my bond.

The secondary school kids are cute, well, mostly. They are friendly at times, good morning cher, good afternoon cher, and they steal curious looks at you. HAHA.

Cher, you want to eat pocky?
" no thanks"

Cher, why your face like that, you very bored ah. O.O
I wanted to reply, "ya, I am very bored and sleepy"
But I gave the Politically correct ans, " No la, I'm looking at the board", when in fact, I am in a daze. LOL. I didnt even know that he was talkin to me until he repeated twice or thrice. =S

Oh well, some got the goody two shoes face, but some got the big bully face, I shant elaborate further. HAHA. I believe I have the power to change them! =D

Garena's warcraft got many big bullies, all noobs but calling other ppl noobs, and all are sore losers. But nonetheless, it's still very fun. Heeee, depends on who u play it with.

KK, GTG. Very the tired.

The happy happy SooFen? Who is that? She has long disappeared into the abyss of darkness. How do you define happiness? Smiling? Laughing? Or trying to deceive yourself using all sorts of lies and finally convince your very soul that everything's okay,everything's fine, Everything will be fine, everything will be okay... And the end result, A smile or laughter that's fake.

Being kids is afterall a good thing, you laugh when you find something funny, you smile when you're really happy. Everything is so much simpler. As you grow up, you smile to please others, you do things to please others, and you end up feeling so miserable inside.

Well , this blog is obviously an avenue for me to voice out my thoughts which ppl rarely know. I dont think anyone even reads them. Maybe a few. A coupla of few.

Sometimes you just want to shout, I HATE THIS WORLD so much, and disappear into the dark abyss forever. Why bother? What's there to bother? There's nothing to bother.

Thoughts that are so extreme that you think that they are so well hidden and they do not exist at all.

And when this entry ends, the happy happy soofie will come back again, yes indeed.

On a positive note, I actually miss the kids from YPS, miss the really warm and nice teachers who helped us along the way, and of course, the cold resource room which we spent our time blog shopping.

and lastly, Thank you fren(s) who's there to listen to me.

It's only the first day of School Experience today and I'm dead beat! Probably due to the fact that I couldn't sleep last night and I need to wake up at 615am. It was such a torturous moment when I had to force myself out of the alluring bed. =(

SE was fun I guess, the kids are cute and obedient, teachers are warm and welcoming. I guess I just haven't seen the worse lot. Something embarrassing happened this morning and this is pretty much expected of me. I alighted from the bus in a rush and I held my bag and laptop in my hands, and my handphone actually dropped onto the floor. I must have looked really flustered and a student from the Primary School that I actually am going to helped me picked it up. =S So embarrassing. LOL. I thanked him and he replied " your welcome" politely, he will have a bright future. HAHA.

Okay, I felt really sleepy in the class... took down quite a lot of notes which is worth an A4 size page? The kids bid us goodbye in a very interesting manner.

" Thank you teacher. Hope to see you again and enjoy your day" HAHA, what a novelty.

Alright, But I am dead tired now, Feel like napping but I just didnt want to and the end result is that, I feel so tired that I lost all my appetite.........

Tmr will be better!=D

Alright, since someone wants me to update my blog, I shall update it!=D

The holiday has been eventful so far, took care of baby, took part in the process of dumpling-making, went to QIAN HU to get my feet bitten by fish, went around Singapore, and ventured into Malaysia.

Practicum is finally starting tmr and I am going to experience school life again. There will certainly be stark differences between the primary school life now and my primary school life. I still remember my teacher used to hit our palms with the 1m ruler as a form of punishment but corporal punishment is strictly forbidden now. The times have indeed changed. How will my first day in school be like, so familiar but yet so not familiar. Two weeks of school experience will certainly pass very soon. ( oh man, I hear someone farting away!!)

HAHAH. Okay, we have been preparing for our Australia trip every now and then. The itinerary is almost done. What's lacking now are the air tickets and hotel reservation. We intend to stay at GOLD COAST INTERNATIONAL. The interior is good I think. And I think the highlight of the tip will be Tangalooma Island, where I get to feed dolphins! <3 I want to hug KOALAS TOO and take pictures with them! =D And someone will take pic with crocodile. ( baby crocodile, he got no stength to carry big crocodile. )LOL. Okay, the trip is going to be costly, but I know I will enjoy myself for that two weeks.

The procedure of doing things must change, if not misunderstandings will arise and it would be difficult to cooperate. We must care for each others' feelings, think for ppl before thinking for yourself. Will you feel good if it's done to you? Think about it.

I love this Soundtrack from Prince of Persia. It simply blends into the movie, and the melody is really adoring.




LYRICS

How crass you stand before me
With no blood to fuel your fame
How dare you wield such flippancy
Without requisite shame
Your very existence becomes my sacred mission's bane
You bow to kiss my hand and I ignore ignited flame

How I'm moved to meet you
Untouched I do remain

To some it seems foreign why I would steely forge ahead
This land entrusted to me knows not of hallowed secrets
I'll keep it to myself while your brave eyes swim in my head
Your charm cannot distract me from the path I'm born to tread

How I'm thrilled to know you
Unaffected i remain
How I've learned to like you
Undeterred I do remain

Less daunting as team
And you, unlikely king by my side
And me, so much better for trusting you
My hand over your heart while you keep hindrances at bay
Color me surprised by how our union saves the day

How I've grown to need you
As my solo journey fades
How I love to love you
And how loyal I remain

I remain
I remain
I remain
I remain

Exams are long over and this is such an overdue post. Heh. Days are so carefree without having to fret over school work and exams. 4 months of Freedom! Loving it.

Had a movie marathon right after exams with my dear, It's exhausting and sitting in the cinema for three movies is certainly no easy feat. =p Holidays are not exactly mundane as I had stuff to do along the way. Looking forward to my genting trips, chalet and most importantly, my lovely getaway at Australia Gold coast. So many things that I would love to do and accomplish, but yet limited time. Life isnt exactly short, I'm already one fifth of a century old, assuming I live to a ripe old age of 100, I still have 80 yrs to whatever I want to do. =D

Did a mini Spring cleaning of my room, threw away a big thrash bag of rubbish that somehow or rather, ended up in my room. I also wiped the dust which accumulated over the days/months/years?? and some parts of my room is sparkling clean. Heeee... It's so tiring to do spring cleaning, my back is aching... I am intending to complete it in phases, with a secretary helping me of course. =P

Alright, got to pen off now....Kind of sleepy, and I need to BATHE. Stinks.

Sometimes, your life is centered around so many things that you forget the simplest thing. Took a slow walk back home, walked through the park, there ain't many people around. With music playing away, and the cool breeze blowing at me, I can think about almost anything under the world. It's always nice to have this kind of moment. Sometimes, you just need this kind of serenity.